Thursday, April 02, 2009
An Incomplete Life
This week's Topical Blogger subject is "What would your life be like without Jesus?" Here's my entry:
It seems as though some people will use personal drama in order to feel validated. They talk about how their kids are failing in school, how they can't find a job, how their marriage failed, what the ex did now, how the boss hates them. In their eyes, they are the only ones who can be right, but somehow no one else can see it that way.
It's the drama that makes the individual feel ... individual. Unique. It's the drama that makes him ... feel ... anything ... anything at all. And if I can feel ... anything ... then I know I am alive.
But there are days -- weeks sometimes -- where I don't feel ... where my heart is nothing more than mechanical ... boom-boom ... boom-boom ... boom-boom ...
Tell me good news - you're getting married ... got a promotion ... baby took his first steps ... anything that should inspire joy ... ... By the way I reacted (or more accurately, didn't react) it may seem that I'm dead. Oh, I know that I should feel for you. I just can't bring myself to be so obsequious.
Or, tell me bad news ... you got fired ... arrested ... mugged ... or worse ... Grief and sorrow -- they don't hold much meaning for me either. You see, everyone dies. But not everyone really lives. In fact there are hundreds, maybe even thousands of "dead" people in live bodies. Don't get me wrong - I'm not talking about "vampires" or "zombies" or anything like that. I don't believe in those things. What I mean is people in functional bodies, with no soul, no heart, no emotion. No purpose. No value.
I have life, but I don't really live.
I have a heart, but I don't really feel.
I have abilities, but I have no purpose.
No purpose. No value.
No place in this world.
I will give them an undivided heart and put a new spirit in them; I will remove from them their heart of stone and give them a heart of flesh. -- Ezekiel 11:19
Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. -- Psalm 51:10
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